Doot doot~

So, I'd been having problems getting the motivation to leave the house to go shopping...for about a week now. Last night I said, "I'll go first thing tomorrow morning," just as I had the day before. Well, I didn't.

So tonight, I was like, "I'll go first thing tomorrow morning...no I won't. I'll just go now." So I got out out bed, got dressed, and drove to Safeway at midnight-fifteen. Safeway wasn't 24 hour, or if it was, not at the door I went to. So I went to Walmart.

I got the stuff I wanted, plus some, uh, extra stuff I didn't intend to, like beef jerky, and some food for when we do some 5v5 arenas upcoming. (I'm almost the level on Ritz where I can group with Karl and the rest of his friends for arena PvP.)

So, coming back, I got the mail, which I'd also been neglecting for like a week- it's okay, I can get away with that, I hardly get any mail anyhow. And I find my psyche eval has finally popped up after I'd been trying to track it down to get some sorta math disability thing for school.

So, munching on my impulse-buy beef jerky at 1:24 am in bed and reading, I found it -highly- ironic how it listed sleeping problems, impulsiveness, and extreme procrastination on things I felt were boring.

The eval was kinda..wow. I mean, I was 13, and all this stuff...there were some tearjerking lines from the shrink, too, like "Overall, there is a sense of an individual who has lived this way for a long time and does not know anything else." after listed stuff that is..kinda not so great, yeah? It was interesting, anyways. Reading this, and after reading my homeschool reports a few weeks back, I still feel that I've caught up to my mental age and am no longer as full of potential as I once was. A bit disappointing, that. It was fairly insightful, regardless. Will prolly let Karl read it.


The cat I'm babysitting, Mia, bit me so hard the other day that I now have this horribly nasty bruise on my ankle. She goes home soon, thank god.


Mother is borrowing 3k..again, (to help pay down payment on Amy/Kass new house?) without paying back the first 3k. And is now talking about having me split the cost of my tuition.

At this point, I'm not sure I'm remotely motivated to do it. I'm sorta in college for the ride. If I have to pay for it..I think I'd just prefer to get a part time job and rent out a room and do what I want with my life instead of slaving on a degree I prolly won't use.


On that note, I passed my programming class! Dunno if I indicated that I was concerned about not. Prolly didn't. But I was. First non-math class I worried about failing. I failed both the midterm and the final (final with a 33,) but apparently my work with the assignments was good enough to pull me through with a C.


Uuh..what else. Uh. I'm not taking calc over the summer, I was panicked too much about not having a break from school (fuck our public education system) that I couldn't handle the thought of getting pushed right back into the drivel without any time to myself. So I just settled for an interim 9-4:30pm class six times over the course of like five weeks taken with Karl. It's fairly interesting.

Dad got me an EEEEEEE PC. Been using it for class. Very useful, very small, solid state harddrive is a plus. Already dropped it once and it didn't even flinch. (It was on, even.)

Need to get a haircut soon.

Been feeling an urge to produce something, to -do- something. Will prolly result in lots of doodles or splurge writing.

Or maybe doing something crazier than going to the store at 12pm+. I liked it. I drove the speed limit, sang with my music, and just putzed with no pressure or stress and minimal people to deal with. There was no having to get someplace because of wasted time otherwise. Walmart is far less terrifying when empty.


I wanna move to Sweden.